Into The Future

I’m having one of those days where nothing much goes on inside my head. Know the feeling? Like my body and mind is regrouping and I need some peace and complete quiet to do so.

I need to relax and let serendipity work it’s magic. How I love that word!

”Serendipity is a propensity for making fortuitous discoveries while looking for something unrelated..”

It’s acceptance of the absolute unexpected. To give up, to give in and just go with what’s there….. right in front of you. Not trying to force anything. It’s about trusting that inner voice, the gut feeling.

I read a script by a very talented Italian writer and director the other day. On the most obvious level the story is a about a man who escapes from prison to live in the forest alone, to contemplate and to find him self. The point is that a man will never be a man before he has spent a certain amount of time alone all by himself in nature. An idea that rings very true to me. Remember Sean Penn’s movie ‘Into The Wild’? Besides that Emile Hirsch is a bad-ass actor, who killed that part, ‘Into The Wild’ deals with the same subject matter. Searching for truth, going back to basics in nature, being a pilgrim and doing things in new ways. Traveling the road less traveled.

It’s funny how that flick ‘spoke’ to most of my male friends. Everybody was going on road trips, climbing mountains, going hiking …. and then again, some guys were taking the more easy way: a walk in the local park. but hey! – It was a first for them in years… 😉

It makes me remember how clear sighted I was just after I came out of the 10 days of completely silent Vipassana Meditation in Fresno. That was November 2009. It was unbelievably hard. Retardely hard! Like being in an effing prison. I kid you not!!! But I gotta give it to the technique; The last 3 days of my stay at the meditation Center and many, many weeks after, everything was so clear, so easy to understand and to accept.

A lot of times we get in our own way because we try to interpret a given situation. In fact, we do that most of the time. Around the clock. It takes us out of the moment and we get caught up in stupid and ridiculous drama. Why not for once just try to see things as the are. Not how we want them to be. And know within ourselves that things are subject to change. Nothing is permanent. Neither happiness nor unhappiness. I’m not permanent. Every hour I’m one step closer to death. Tomorrow the sun rises and sets no matter if I’m here or not. It’s a fact. It’s kind of nihilistic, abstract and complex, but really not when you think about it and begin to just let go and not dwell on details or everyday drama. Who the F cares really about little minor bumps in the road in the long run?

Back to LALA reality: I got up at crack of dawn and drove my roomie to the airport. Ugggghh – kinda depressing that she is leaving…. Miss her already. the apartment is so big and empty with out her….hmmm…

Then I had an audition for a feature film. It was ok… We improvised a bit and joked around besides reading the actual scene. I wasn’t nervous… but auditions are always weird since you have so little time to prepare to actually be another human being. It’s crazy when you think about it.

Anyways. Then I did something completely nuts in LA terms; I walked to my lunch meeting. Oooh eeeM Geeeehhh!!! It’s a walk that takes about 1 hour one way and here in The City of Angels that is probably the most absurd thing to do: to walk anywhere. Almost more absurd than to get a lobotomy. Or I’d say more people have their boobs done in this city than you will see people walking from A to B. Welcome to LA!

Anyhow, on the way to my lunch I stopped by the hippie store MAYA on Melrose and bought myself a small golden septum ring he he… A fake one of course. But even so, it’s still soooo bad-ass (sorry it’s become my favorite word of the month). I predict it will be the new accessory of the season. But you gotta wear it with class and tons of fierceness. Tribal just went to the next level people. Watch out!

Now I’m sitting with yet another new script that I just got today in my inbox … let me count…. that’s number 5 script.. I think..? yeah… So I’m really not complaining.

Actually I better get to it people.

I have another 10 days in LA until I fly to NYC where I booked a gig in The Hamptons. Yesterday I got word that I have an option for a job in Budapest from July 6th – 9th. On the 14th I have to be in Copenhagen and on the 15th I’m off to Greece.

So I guess my body is right… now is the time to regroup and find peace before the next journey into the future….

Au revoir mes enfants. Et A bientôt!